January 1: A day where we reflect on the past year and look forward to the next 365 (366) days with optimism and a firm resolve to not quit our resolutions by January 31.
As I look back on 2015, it was a rough year for me. I had several medical issues that beat me up and dragged me down. One of which the remedy is “You need to learn to live with the pain because we can’t fix it. If we do, you could be in even more pain”. I also had to make the tough decision to go back to work or to stay home with my girls (I went to a great job that has a full pension and benefits. I am enjoying but feeling the guilt of working as well). Hubby is in the middle of doing his Master’s degree which is also an added stress on our family but it will be worth it in the end. I have been super busy and too stressed to really enjoy anything that I want to do.
Looking forward to 2016, I resolve to do the following:
Pursue alternate methods of dealing with my condition. Getting healthy is big on my list. I don’t believe that we should be living with physical pain and I will find a medical professional that feels the same as me and will work with me to get pain free. Once we can manage the pain, I can get back to exercising which is a great stress reliever for me.
Learning to let go. As a woman, and a mom, I feel like if I don’t do it, it’s not going to get done “right” which really means “It won’t get done the way I want it done”. This has set me up for late nights and early mornings trying to get house cleaned, kids ready, etc. Hubby is more than willing to help and more than capable. I need to let him take on some house chores. It will be a sanity saver. I need to remember we are a team and he is a grown man, not the third child, so he can help out with the house stuff.
Learning to say no: Why do we as women, put so much pressure on ourselves to do everything? I have been super stressed in 2015 because of all the activities I am involved in. So this year, I am taking stock in what I do, and will only say yes if it is a good fit for me and my family, not out of obligation or guilt. If they can’t find anyone else to do it, well I am sorry, but it will not get done (and chances are, they will find someone to step up who is a better fit).
Making time for me: I feel like I lost ME. I don’t know who I am anymore besides wife, mom, leader, etc. I am going to spend some time by myself with a book and my devotions and get back to writing (a lost love of mine), which brings me to my final resolution:
To write a little bit every day! A few of my friends put out a challenge to write something for 365 days in 2016. I can’t promise you that my writings will all be on this blog but I love to write and this is a challenge that will keep me accountable in keeping this blog up to date and bring me back to doing something that I love to do but never have time to devote to it.
Best of luck to all of you in your resolutions and I hope that mine and yours will go beyond January 31!